Thomas and Friends

Recently my 2 years plus girl has been humming this song of 'Thomas and Friend', did it most of time. However one thing you may not know, that is she is terrified to watch this cartoon, only love the song initially. When her cousins watching, she usually started to cry and screamed she scared, do not want to watch. She is afraid of the facial expression of the train, scary to her. Gradually she begin to start watching, by hidding behind the sofa, and watch from there. So cute!


This is part of the Thomas & Friends's lyrics which she usually sing :

"Thomas he's the cheeky one
James is vain but lots of fun
Percy pulls the mail on time
Gordon thunders down the line
Emily really knows her stuff
Henry toots and huffs and puffs
Edward wants to help and share
Toby, well let's say, he's square
............................."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hw522GIskVc

Full arc rainbow

This evening, I saw a full arc rainbow. I am so happy and excited. I shared this excitement with my little daughter, showing her what is a rainbow, can tell she is also enjoying it as much as I do, marveled by the beauty of the colourful shape in the sky. Magnificent! The rainbow became brighter and clearer as times passes. I quickly uses my camera to take some snap-shots of it, however due to the light, I appeared dark in the picture, but is okay, I am really happy today. There is also another rainbow high above it, however it appeared faintly. Lilian Too said on http://www.wofs.com/ that “…seeing a rainbow is always a good sign ….. and when double rainbow appeared whatever is coming to you has great meaning in your life and that one good thing will lead to another good thing ….. The rainbows are a sign from the cosmic universe that you are about to have something great fall into your lap!” I truly believe that seeing a rainbow will bring good luck, and I saw a full rainbow. This rainbow will bring the very best of luck to me from now on.

Father And Mother I Love You

Whenever we come home, upon seeing us at the door, ah girl will be enormously excited, yes very! jumping up and down and screaming at high pitch, that is our girl way of expressing her happiness. What matters to her is Daddy and Mummy is back, wow really wonderful, and came running to us and stretching out her small arms wanting to be carried. Children is like little angels, they do not hide feelings, they are so genuine. When there is love there is jealousy, hugging showing affection to her cousins is a No! No!, these cousins are her day time playmates and companions, but when comes to father and mother hugging and cuddling anyone but herself, it is a different story, and her big eyes will be welled up with tears, then start to yell, protesting, disapproving our action….ah girl is so adorable…

Scent

You know, the nicest fragrance on earth is my sweet girl's scent. I LOVE to smell her, particularly her soft hair, after a lungful sniff of her head, wonderful amazing feeling enveloped me, all my uhappiness in life momentarily disappeared, no more financial stress, work stress etc, they vaporized into the thin air. Her soft fine hair is so magical and powerful.

Road to Miracle Part 3

Today is my girl’s birthday. Putting aside the early fright, I do enjoyed this pregnancy process. Feeling the baby’s fingers and toes wriggling in me, this can be felt when I was sitting down, I could still remember that tickling feeling. Also, enjoyed watching my tummy danced, as she moved in me. Imagine the sight of the abdomen be like a `m’ shape, with the middle of it sank inwards, the extent of the tummy stretching can be surprising and unbelievable. With a previous caesarean surgery meant that I could not elect for natural delivery.

For the seek of the baby, we had decided to seek traditional fengshui master to pick an auspicious day basing on the Chinese lunar calendar for my elective caesarean. The birthday of my girl arrived, I was pushed into the delivery operation theatre.

This was the 2nd major surgery I have gone through in a short 2 years timeframe, I was overwhelmed by anxiety and excitement. The midwife noted my fear shared this with me, she asked me “do you know how `caesarean’ name comes about?” I shook my head, and she continued “Shakespeare Julius Caesar, as legend has it, he was born this way. It is also referred to as C-section”. Then she smiled, and her warmth touched me, and my fear seem to subside. My hubby was with me the whole process holding tightly to my hands, giving moral support, together witness our creation. A pediatrician was there, he will check on the new-born. After the anesthetist performed his procedures on me, I felt the below half gradually sank into numbness while the upper half remained conscious.

The semi-conscious caesarean process was a frightening episode, I felt downward pressure being forced on my upper chest, also the tugging commotion on my abdomen. Remembered I was strugging for breathe, having difficulty breathing, quicky the medical team put oxygen mask on me, I still felt horrible, like going to die. The discomfort made the process seem long. Soon, I heard baby screaming cry, and our precious little one finally make her way to this beautiful world.

Road to Miracle Part 2

Following the good news of pregnancy, to celebrate life, I kept a diary. Recording what I ate and how I felt. Everyday flipping the calendar, hoping the day to see the gynae can come by faster. I want to see my baby, see my baby...

Finally the day came, ultrasound scan on my 11 weeks, the baby has thick neck line (2.4mm). I was advised to do a further check on it. I did a detailed NT scan and blood test. The result of the combined tests reflected that I have a high risk to conceive a down syndrome child, ratio is 1: 74, I was really sad. It is our first baby. Senior obstetrician told me not to give up hope and gave me the choice to do either amniocentesis test or Chorionic villus sampling (CVS). I chose the latter, CVS is a procedure to withdraw a small amount of the placenta tissue, this can be done as early as 11 weeks.


Before the CVS procedure, I did an ultrasound scan, it was to see how big the baby is and also measure the baby neck line again. I still can remember the feeling while watching the ultrasound monitor, my hubby held my hands tight, it touches us to see the baby, moving in me actively, she has a life.


The CVS procedure was a short 15 minutes. I was given a local anaesthesia, the procedure was done by inserting a biopsy needle through my abdoman into the placenta, and at the same time monitoring the baby through the ultrasound. I felt pain initially, but it goes off quickly. The sight of the injection instrument shocked me, never ever saw such long and big injection equipment before. Few seconds later, the big felt needle was poked into my tummy and it started the process of extracting tissues from my placenta through the hands of an experience doctor. Though I felt the pressure exerted by the obstetrician while he did the procedure, it was not painful. After the placenta tissue has been withdrawn, it was sent to the lab for special test. I was put on 3 days medical leave, was advised to rest well. The result will be out in 3 weeks time.
The wait for the result was terrible, I cried often, I felt the baby in me, whatever the result, even though got support of hubby and family members but I who carry the life bear the pain and the stress that going through, quite unbearable. Family members told me to be prepared for abortion if ...

Finally the CVS test result showed my baby is normal, we were really really glad. The first thing to do was to call my family to inform them the wonderful news!
http://www.kkh.com.sg/PatientHealthLibrary/WomensHealth/Pregnancy/Chrionic.htm

Road to Miracle Part 1

I love children. What will affect my chances of getting pregnant? I shall shared my story here:-
I was diagnosed with uterine fibroids. Gynae has done an ultrasound on the uterus, and there were multiples of them. Why did fibroids exist? Until now, the cause is still unknown. My Gynae told me uterine fibroids are a very common tumour in women which may not caused concern. Most women do not feel them and they go undetected unless experience heavy bleeding, anemia, infertility, weakness, heavy discharge, or painful intercourse. I experienced heavy menstruation flow and anemia. What do I meant by heavy bleeding? It disturbed my everyday life during the heavy flow days. And bosses won’t be happy if every month of the year, there be a day medical leave. The surgery was scheduled for me in 2004, before then, the gynae did go through the danger involved in surgery, the bowel system may be affected, and the whole womb might be removed if unforeseen complication involved. I laid helplessly on the operation theatre bed and let the surgeons do the work. Fortunately all goes well during the `opening up and stitching up process.’ I got a caesarian cut, and then I saw the `creatures’, they were awful picture which I have locked away hidden somewhere, I do not want to see it again. Things didn’t end there, I still felt heavy flows even after the operation. For some unknown reason, there are still some fibroids in my uterus, I still have to take the Tranexamic tablet prescribed for me. Fibroids would hindered the chance of pregnancy, we kept our fingers crossed and hope for miracles. Then in 2005, my prayer was answered, I used the `magic stick’ to test whether I am pregnant.

And there I saw a very faint line, I didn’t believe my eyes, wow, beaming with happy tears and cannot believe a miracle happened on me, a heaven’s gift.